ytd i went back for school . yea because csw was ytd . prepared my portfolio thruout the night till bout 3-4am. Anyway, i didnt believe that i was the first to get interviewed. dammit.But it was overall a good experience for me . She told me my exam results werent good as compared to others. But my internship training programme will boost a lot because i had done hands on work before. i didnt expect the dog shit job which i worked would b an assets to me.

i forgot about the class room no. , but i didnt ask any1 . so i went to the fifth floor . n started walking down. i met my teacher @ fourth floor . she told me our class was @ the third floor. o.o
yea , i went down n took my interview, cos the first guy didnt turned up. I juz thought mayb i will interact with the guys in my csw class. i dunno i juz wanted to stay there longer.

anw, our gems test was @ 5pm. n my interview finished @ abt 845? im not very sure.anyway during the test. teacher was asking for cindy. yea. guess she had no idea wad happened. vincent juz told her she wont be coming. den she tot. she skipped test or something . yea vincent i feel u. he juz wanted to avoid the word passed away. when we told her the incident. she oso felt sad. yea. its normal . death is a taboo for every1 . live a day n a day is gone. hw many day can a person live. -.-

i have tried . i really have tried to meet up with vincent . but he just ignored me like today on facebook . or chat for a while on facebook or msn . i tried asking him out . he rejected me . i noe i shldnt give up but being rejected again n again isnt a really good feeling .

It aint working.

Dear Cindy,

with ur easy-going nature and super nice attitude, making friends with you was no a difficult problem . i rmb the first time i came to SP, when i found my class, i made frens with zach. When the talk to welcome the new students finished. we went bak to our respective classes to have a rough idea who's in our class. i was sitting with z , n u were sitting with vincent if im not wrong . whereas ws n ben were sitting at some weird places. I dunno how it happen but all of us gathered to formed clinqe and u were the only female in our clinqe. z left during yr 2 for WSS n i left during yr 2.5 cos i had to repeat module.

Despite the fact, i still tried to arrange my timetable such that i can still meet up with ur. We also made friends with ck n ea who were introduce by weisin , and they joined us frequently for outings like movies , mahjong. thou they started straying away when weisin n ck quarrelled, n ea left school . You always smile and wave to them whenever you saw them .

During yr 3, i tried to re-arrange my timetable but only 1 module could be fitted to ur class . Vincent left cos he had took a different choice frm ur . And there was only you weisin n benjamin left in the same class . I still call to meet up for lunch . clash ur lectures with vincent and went out for movies or bdae celebrations hosted by you . I took the same gems as you n vincent so that we could meet up more often . before mk went to NS, we still went to mk house together to play mahjong and slack . i rmb we went clubbing once together with ea ws mk . you took my laptop and ask me to go as i was quite reluctant . but i still went, cos i tot we would have fun together.
i rmb you made chee quen wear a piece of triangular white underwear and walk around fc4 for his bdae celebration . it brought us joy n laughter . and we hope it wont happened to any1 of us on our bdae .

As the only female, we(actually its only ws ) would talk abt pervertic stuffs . u would say ws is despo . and with his 把妹 skills . he wont get girlfriend . you was the only 1 who can make vincent eat in sch even thou i tried a hundred times compared to ur 1 time . i rmb there was a LJS breakfast discount and u would always call during maths lesson when u r late and ask whether we wanna eat . After we eat finish . z will throw the food ard . and u would always scold n shout, telling him to pick it up and clear it up. And after the opening of mac . i heard u had mac very often . u were very busy with ur moudles as pme was deadly and ur had to rush to finish your work till late night .

I rmb on 6 august, i met up with ur for gems . and we saw cheng huat outside . he asked hows ur project . i juz answered going on smoothly .
den he asked i rmb the order for the things . he say he forgot when it will b delivered.
i also answered for you . After national day .
den we went in the lift and went for class .
the lesson was juz doing and copying the past year papers. and we all had troubles copying . i rmb u were making a bdae card for ur friend . if i rmb correctly its chelsea . u felt that the 9 u drew was ugly . u said it was like comma . so u tore away the card n changed it to a smaller 1 . while i was vandalising the unwanted 1 . After class we went bak in the same train as i was going to tornado! with ws . the train was really packed . during city hall n ws n i couldnt see you as u were sitting down already . we didnt had the chance to say goodbye and we juz left .

I always thought, we could have the chance to meet up for lunch n everything . after ws ea vincent zach went for their NS . as i will b entering 6 months later den them . At least for the 6 months, i will have ur accompany . But now.

On sunday morning . ard 11am . i juz woke up n i switched on the tv for national day eve special show . ws called me . i ignore the first call as i tot he wanted to change the time to 4 . he call the second time . n i picked up .
he told me . vincent told him some bad bad very bad news
i str8 away tot of u
as you were the closest to vincent among us
he told me
you had left us .
i thought it was a joke .
But it was true .
i quickly conference vincent into the convo to ask again .
and z called me . all 4 of us confirmed in the convo that you had left us .
i went to facebook to confirm the news again n again .
I wanted to noe wad really happened.
vincent didnt called us when you were in the operation room .
although even if he had said
we couldnt do anything
but i hope i could at least do something like praying for you
and yet i dunno anything abt it till u left .
I realise i couldnt do anything anymore but juz stay with you as long as i can
and accompany you as u walk towards the end .


I regret not taking more photos of you
I regret not treating you even better
I regret not attending your bdae
i regret not being able to do anything
I regret not having any bad omen on friday
I regret not listening attentively when you talk
I regret not knowing more things about urself
i regret a lot and a lot of things .

i rmb u said u wanted my NDP voucher to see if theres any restaurant coupon which you could bring ur fren to .
i rmb you said u wanted to watch human centipede when i told you abt it .
i rmb you told me to sign up for the cupcake course .
i rmb you said you went to a fortune teller . he said , you will 短命, u said u will only live till 30-40+ .
i rmb you said you wanna drive on my car after i get license and after u guys graduate. so we could party on that day .
weisin rmb you always act stubborn, thinks that ur english is always right .
weisin rmb you are always violent towards him when he act n showoff . or when he guai lan u .
you will always pinch him in the nipple . and when he act not pain . u will pinch even harder.
weisin rmb you like to bicker with him . talk cock abt the pasttimes in class.

i noe you r worried abt ur family n mk .
mk is staying strong and i noe he doesnt wan you to see him sad.
we would ensure ur FYP will b done and we would help ur group as much as we can .
we noe u wanted to learn cupcake baking to give to mk . we would oso do that for u.

i noe doing all this already mean nothing
but i still feel super fk up that you have been treated liddat.
you were a member of st john ambulance
you where in community service club
you were the least person i expected .
you noe we always laugh at those crippled, being racist . do things which annoyed ppl .
why was it you .
its really unfair and we cannot do anything abt it .
im really pissed and theres nothing we can do .
its really really unfair to have such a tragedy happen upon u .
we sincerely hope you noe that we were there for u at ur last moment .
and we will remember you.


From Ding Liang and words of regret i heard frm Wei Sin Zach Edmund & Vincent .

instructions : remove one question frm above and add in ur personal question.Make it a total of 20 question then tag 8 people in ur list. List them out at the end of this post. Notify he/she through your tagboard :)
1. how many children do you want?
- 1(i cant macro well)
2. where would u go if someone sponsors u an air ticket?
-Japan(location i dunno)
3. what's your favourite thing to do?
-Basketball & Anime
4. Do u think money can buy happiness?
-no. but can do superd stuffs for ur gf/wife
5. If u were given a chance to received something, what would it be?
-SUPERPOWER
6. things you can't live without?
-technology
7. what are u afraid to lose?
-family and friends
8. if you win 1 million, what would u do?
-POSB!!! =]]
9. what do u dream of doing in the future?
-Mininster(can slack earn money)
10. list out 3 good point the who gave this survey?
-Loyal, Rich, NEVA GIVE UP!
11. what makes me happy?
-i wonder too..
12. what type of person do u hate most?
-hm.. for now . i can only rmb terrence
13. if u could hv a superpower what would it be?
-SUPER STRENGTH + IMPENETRATEBLE SKIN
14. which season do u like?
-SUMMER
15. what do u think is the most important thing in ur life?
-i wonder too..
16. if u have a gf, would u die wif her?
-Depends on Who she is.
17. who was the last person who hugged u?
-i wonder too..
18. what is the one thing u want it badly now?
-$$
19. whom are u close to?
-Most of my frens
20. favourite colour of ur world?
-Black and White

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