Thursday, August 12, 2010 ' 12:12 PM ♥
Dear Cindy,
with ur easy-going nature and super nice attitude, making friends with you was no a difficult problem . i rmb the first time i came to SP, when i found my class, i made frens with zach. When the talk to welcome the new students finished. we went bak to our respective classes to have a rough idea who's in our class. i was sitting with z , n u were sitting with vincent if im not wrong . whereas ws n ben were sitting at some weird places. I dunno how it happen but all of us gathered to formed clinqe and u were the only female in our clinqe. z left during yr 2 for WSS n i left during yr 2.5 cos i had to repeat module.
Despite the fact, i still tried to arrange my timetable such that i can still meet up with ur. We also made friends with ck n ea who were introduce by weisin , and they joined us frequently for outings like movies , mahjong. thou they started straying away when weisin n ck quarrelled, n ea left school . You always smile and wave to them whenever you saw them .
During yr 3, i tried to re-arrange my timetable but only 1 module could be fitted to ur class . Vincent left cos he had took a different choice frm ur . And there was only you weisin n benjamin left in the same class . I still call to meet up for lunch . clash ur lectures with vincent and went out for movies or bdae celebrations hosted by you . I took the same gems as you n vincent so that we could meet up more often . before mk went to NS, we still went to mk house together to play mahjong and slack . i rmb we went clubbing once together with ea ws mk . you took my laptop and ask me to go as i was quite reluctant . but i still went, cos i tot we would have fun together.
i rmb you made chee quen wear a piece of triangular white underwear and walk around fc4 for his bdae celebration . it brought us joy n laughter . and we hope it wont happened to any1 of us on our bdae .
As the only female, we(actually its only ws ) would talk abt pervertic stuffs . u would say ws is despo . and with his 把妹 skills . he wont get girlfriend . you was the only 1 who can make vincent eat in sch even thou i tried a hundred times compared to ur 1 time . i rmb there was a LJS breakfast discount and u would always call during maths lesson when u r late and ask whether we wanna eat . After we eat finish . z will throw the food ard . and u would always scold n shout, telling him to pick it up and clear it up. And after the opening of mac . i heard u had mac very often . u were very busy with ur moudles as pme was deadly and ur had to rush to finish your work till late night .
I rmb on 6 august, i met up with ur for gems . and we saw cheng huat outside . he asked hows ur project . i juz answered going on smoothly .
den he asked i rmb the order for the things . he say he forgot when it will b delivered.
i also answered for you . After national day .
den we went in the lift and went for class .
the lesson was juz doing and copying the past year papers. and we all had troubles copying . i rmb u were making a bdae card for ur friend . if i rmb correctly its chelsea . u felt that the 9 u drew was ugly . u said it was like comma . so u tore away the card n changed it to a smaller 1 . while i was vandalising the unwanted 1 . After class we went bak in the same train as i was going to tornado! with ws . the train was really packed . during city hall n ws n i couldnt see you as u were sitting down already . we didnt had the chance to say goodbye and we juz left .
I always thought, we could have the chance to meet up for lunch n everything . after ws ea vincent zach went for their NS . as i will b entering 6 months later den them . At least for the 6 months, i will have ur accompany . But now.
On sunday morning . ard 11am . i juz woke up n i switched on the tv for national day eve special show . ws called me . i ignore the first call as i tot he wanted to change the time to 4 . he call the second time . n i picked up .
he told me . vincent told him some bad bad very bad news
i str8 away tot of u
as you were the closest to vincent among us
he told me
you had left us .
i thought it was a joke .
But it was true .
i quickly conference vincent into the convo to ask again .
and z called me . all 4 of us confirmed in the convo that you had left us .
i went to facebook to confirm the news again n again .
I wanted to noe wad really happened.
vincent didnt called us when you were in the operation room .
although even if he had said
we couldnt do anything
but i hope i could at least do something like praying for you
and yet i dunno anything abt it till u left .
I realise i couldnt do anything anymore but juz stay with you as long as i can
and accompany you as u walk towards the end .
I regret not taking more photos of you
I regret not treating you even better
I regret not attending your bdae
i regret not being able to do anything
I regret not having any bad omen on friday
I regret not listening attentively when you talk
I regret not knowing more things about urself
i regret a lot and a lot of things .
i rmb u said u wanted my NDP voucher to see if theres any restaurant coupon which you could bring ur fren to .
i rmb you said u wanted to watch human centipede when i told you abt it .
i rmb you told me to sign up for the cupcake course .
i rmb you said you went to a fortune teller . he said , you will 短命, u said u will only live till 30-40+ .
i rmb you said you wanna drive on my car after i get license and after u guys graduate. so we could party on that day .
weisin rmb you always act stubborn, thinks that ur english is always right .
weisin rmb you are always violent towards him when he act n showoff . or when he guai lan u .
you will always pinch him in the nipple . and when he act not pain . u will pinch even harder.
weisin rmb you like to bicker with him . talk cock abt the pasttimes in class.
i noe you r worried abt ur family n mk .
mk is staying strong and i noe he doesnt wan you to see him sad.
we would ensure ur FYP will b done and we would help ur group as much as we can .
we noe u wanted to learn cupcake baking to give to mk . we would oso do that for u.
i noe doing all this already mean nothing
but i still feel super fk up that you have been treated liddat.
you were a member of st john ambulance
you where in community service club
you were the least person i expected .
you noe we always laugh at those crippled, being racist . do things which annoyed ppl .
why was it you .
its really unfair and we cannot do anything abt it .
im really pissed and theres nothing we can do .
its really really unfair to have such a tragedy happen upon u .
we sincerely hope you noe that we were there for u at ur last moment .
and we will remember you.
From Ding Liang and words of regret i heard frm Wei Sin Zach Edmund & Vincent .
